The How of Unconditional Love

I want to know what it means to truly love someone!

My kids are part of this quotation, and in my heart it feels unconditional although I still fear losing them in some manner. There is attachment. Holding onto them, for it feels good to give the plentitude of love stored in my Being to someone who matters.

Why does the moment of death release us, finally, to the depths of our human love? Why doesn’t the moment of living reach those depths? What is blocking me from accessing love’s vast potential? May I dissolve these blocks and experience the love I long for?

In times of hurt, I do run, and all I can envision is running further away until the agent of pain can’t reach me. Illusions. I caress the pain within me, and regardless of how far I go, I will never feel free or capable of expressing this transformative love. The only solution is to feel the ache all the way through and rob it of its power. This task is not for the faint of heart. In its apex, it feels debilitating and all kinds of scenarios appear in the min'd’s eye of avoiding the pain, but I have learned that only presence will resolve it. I endure. I feel. I kick. I scream. I pray. Eventually, it feels lighter, and I completely surrender control and love me. I want to learn what it means to truly love myself, so I can truly love another.

In the moment of death, our whole existence is exposed and surrendered. With nothing to protect or hold back, the life of our soul is open to empty out in full capacity. Love is self-surrender. How do I open to the force of my own love while living?

Human love vs. Divine love? If I am created in the image of God and fully Divine/fully Human, how do I emulate her love while being in human form? In the furnace, we see the impurities, and then we distract and avoid facing them and alchemizing them into purity. During this Lent season, I vow to go beyond the threshold until I see my soul. I dare to love fully- God, Self, Other- into Union and onward!